So this time I was seriously not being lazy. I just haven't updated because I havem't had anything to write about. But, after the last couple weeks, I most certainly do.  So last weekend was my 19th birthday and this is how things all began.  Of course, because of my intense love of Bozeman we decided to go there for the weekend. Well, upon Nick discovering that I had never been to a strip club, he decided we were going to go to Teasers.  So we left on Thursday and went to Bozo and headed out to Teasers around 7. I discovered that if you are under 21, your life sucks, because they charge you 13 extra dollars to get into the damn place.  But it was me, Amy, Evin, Nick, Pacer, Andrew, and Bozeman Amanda.  Of course, they bought me a lapdance. It was hot but I was so shy.  Oh well, it happens.  And yes, everyone saw my boobs.  Greeeeeat.  But everyone saw Amy's boobs like 90 times so I didn't so much care.  Then Pacer got hit on by the stripper, as Pacer does. We closed the place down and headed home. We werea ll exhausted so we just went to sleep.  The next day, my birthday, was out of control.  I got up and we went to Taco Bell and ate food and it was sooo good. i am sure you can figure out why.  Then we went home and the party began.  Literally EVERYONE was there.  Grant and Travis, both Amandas, Garth, Stuart, some friend of Grant's and he invited like five people.  Ashley Cole (who was making out with Travis...weird). and all the regulars, plus Brit had a bunch of people over. It was real fun until I decided to announce my goal of taking 19 shots for my birthday.  Around 4 I took the first one with Amanda and Micheala and then Amanda (who had been drinking all day) fell over backwards in the laundry room and it was hilarious. I started with vodka.  Had one shot of So-Co which made me gag because I hate that stuff. Then I finished it up with like 9 shots of RUM. BLAH. I doubt I can ever drink rum again.  Gross.  I finished up around 2 30 in the morning and staggered over across the street and passed out on Ellis's couch.  Fun stuff.  In the meantime, Amanda was hooking up with Pacer ( no FUCKING comment) and Zack.  I don't understand how Zack gets so much play. i mean he is a total stud and all, but he is such a belligerent drunk.  Anyways, so the next day, Ellis's alarm clock went off cause he had to work early and it woke me up and that sucked something fierce and that's when i realized I was gonna die.  But he got me some water and what not and then I just laid there all day.  ALL DAY. I got up and puked and got water a good 5 or 6 times...but other than that, I just laid there.  Ellis came home from work at like 5 in the afternoon and I was still just laying there....dying.  He laughed at me.  It took me the entire duration of him being in the shower just to sit up and get one shoe on.  ONE. I am pathetic. That was the day I officially decided I am worthless when i am hungover.  So we decided to mosy over to the other house but as soon as we opened the door...all we saw was snow. I was stoked but kinda pissed because I didn't have a coat on but then again it's just across the street. Then Ellis threw snow at me.  Cause he's such a funny guy. I took a shower and tried to eat some pizza.  Then we watched Jurassic Park 3 and Ellis went to some party and I went and watched a movie at Grant's and fell asleep. The next day we drove home and I watched the Superbowl and the Seahawks lost and that was pretty devestating.  I was pissed. But we had cake and ice cream and it was fun.  The next couple days was kind of lame. Then I went to stay at Quique's because his parents were in Hawaii on a cruise. His house is so nice. Let me pause a moment to explain the intircate web of families in his life.  Quique's mom and Eric Haffeman's dad got married.  Eric Haffeman's mom and Carson's dad got married.  So yeah...it sounds a lot more complicated when you really get into it, but it's pretty simple really. So I went to Quique's and stayed there. One night I went grocery shopping with him and Chris Justice and we bought all of the neccessities for me to make a three course meal. I made salad, and then chicken and broccoli pasta alfredo from scratch and then we had brownies and of course, kool aid.  It was yummy. Except then Eric came home and brought like three girls with him and they were all drinking and this girl that I hate more than anything...Austyn.  So she saw this pictuere of Quique and his girlyfriend Corrie.  Austyn hates Corrie so she tore the picture off the wall and ripped it in half. Then she stormed up the stairs, came in the kitchen and slapped him across the face.  I nearly dropped everything. Then she ran out of the room and I was like dude if she ever puts her hands on you like that again i will fucking beat teh shit out fo her.  i was so pissed.  I hate that girl as it is and then she fucking slaps my Quique? Oh man.  Plus, then she told him how much she liked him and she is always telling Mark she wants to screw around even though she is with Richard who is my absolute favorite person in this god forsaken town. He is the coolest and she doesn't even like him. Fucking bitch.  Anyway then they left and Mark came over and got drunk and we all just hung out.  The next day was one to not soon be forgotten.  So I woke up real late as usual after a late night.  I took a shower and such and went to run some errands.  When I came back, a ton of people were already there.  Ten minutes after I got there I was straightening my hair and I hear a thud and then screaming and I go out to the living room and Chris had jumped off the atrium balcony and landed on the couch. A bunch of the guys carried him upstairs and his leg was spurting blood and they put him in Mark's car and they all drove to the ER. The result? Chris broke BOTH of the major bones in his lower leg: the tibia and the fibula. He also broke like 8 bones in his ankle and foot. He was in surgery for like 3 hours.  Then a while later that night, my friend Katina got molested by some creepy guy at work and we had to go pick her up. Well, not me, but Shelly and Jasmine.  Then Dan showed up. The ONE person who was not allowed.  And he had alcohol with him too. Which is always a bad combination.  So he kept asking to talk to me and i was just like NO. But finally I did and he scared the shit out of me.  Then all of a sudden everyone is freaking out again. I go around the corner and he had fallen down the stairs and left a HUGE fucking gaping hole in the wall.  Dammit. Then he puked all over the couch and then he pissed himself and then he started crying and nobody knew what to do. So I did the only thing I could do. I called Nick.  He was on his way to Andrew's house.  But I told him I needed him and he came to my rescue as usual.  He got Dan to get up and stop acting like an idiot and then he called Dan's mom to come and get him.  Which she did. After that, everyone just got drunk and forgot about the rest of the night.  The next night, I just hung out and Mark patched up the wall and it actually looks really good.  A ton of people came over but Quique kicked them out.  We went ot Mark's for alittle bit and then I went back to Quique's and we watched Red Eye with Black Ashley and then passed out.  I slept all day until Grant and Katina came over and Grant jumped on me and woke me up. Then me and Kat went and visited Chris in the hospital. Me and Quique cleaned up some more since his parents came home today.  The wall looks exceptional by the way,. Then I packed up and finally came home.  After living with Quique for like a week it feels weird to be here. But oh well. Today is officially Valentine's Day and man oh man.  I just want to drink away my misery and pass out.  Haha. But I do have a valentine.  Everyone knows about my Danny.  The sweetest guy ever. My total soulmate...but he lives 14 hours away.  We are valentines. I wish he was here.  But oh well.  At least we have eachother in heart. I think it's sweeter that way. I dunno why I just do.  So ya. Talked to Ellis tonight and he informed me that he is going to Boise next weekend for Armor for Sleep, Boys Night Out, Chiodos, and some other band and it only costs 10 bucks.  Pissed? Yes. Very. But oh well he will have fun at least.  Even though he is missing my official move in day I forgive him because that show is gonna kick ass.  Um what else...oh yeah...I will be officially living in Bozeman by the 26th of this month. Yes indeed. I am stoked but very scared and I am very busy lately trying to get everything squared away for the move.  Anyways...so that brings you up to date and everything.  I am going to talk to Ellis some more and then go to sleep.  Goodnight everyone. Enjoy the song of the week, which is slowly turning into the song of the damn month since I never update anymore...okay the song is one that Ellis sent me a few minutes ago because he said it was good and he's right, it is.

sOnG oF tHe WeEk: "Smoke and Mirrors" by The Audition

I've been sneaking glances and writing lines about you.
What you think you can take back are the things that are going to haunt you.

This time won't be the last time
That I'm coming straight for your heart,
You know how I move.
And if I must say, I know that I'm worth...

More than you thought.
You've never compromised without rolling your...
I know you've completely torn apart the fact that we could be.

I'm on the search, 2 floors high.
I see the girl that I've been chasing after.
Wishin' her eyes would just reach mine.
Please girl, you know exactly who I'm after.

I can't begin to explain this infatuation that I've grown with you
And all that has to do with every moment that I'm here and you're not.

More than you thought.
You've never compromised without rolling your...
I know you've completely torn apart the fact that we could be.

I'm on the search, 2 floors high.
I see the girl that I've been chasing after.
Wishin' her eyes would just reach mine.
Please girl, you know exactly who I'm after.

And I thought that I would make it,
But you escaped it.
And you swore that you would take this somewhere, somewhere.
Now I'm lost and you're just fakin' the way you played this.
The escape game never seemed so cruel when...

I'm on the search, 2 floors high.
I see the girl that I've been chasing after.
Wishin' her eyes would just reach mine.
Please girl, you know exactly who I'm after.
[x2]

Hey guys. So  I know it has been forever again and I apologize AGAIN. Seriously you have no idea how sidetracked I get every damn time I sit down to update this bitch. Okay...I guess all I can tell you you missed is me hanging out in Bozeman this weekend (as usual) and that's pretty much all I can remember. justin came to town once and I got to see him and Jordan came once to and he bought me the Ican Make a Mess Like Nobody's Business cd, which you need to check out cause it's rad.And Mannequin Republic of Spain had a show up at the BECC. It was a tight show. Lenore the Trigger played and some others...and everyone got pissed because they didn get paid or some shit like that. Whatever. Umm yeah...I hang out with Carson like everyday now which is cool. ME AND MARK MADE UP!!!  Actually, you might not have even known we were fighting. He was a drunken belligerent asshole one night and totally pissed me off and i thought he hated me but he apologized and now we are really cool and pretty good friends.  So that brings me to this past weekend. Went to Bozeman again. There was a show on Sunday at the Zebra Cocktail Lounge.  The 8th Day and Silica.  Left on Saturday with NIck, Dan, and Ashlee. Had a blast Saturday night. Sunday included the following....the show, me putting black streaks in my hair, dancing the tango in the living room with nick with a bottle rocket in my mouth like a rose, licking nicks tongue, getting peanut butter in my hair and not knowing how, getting in a waterfight with mike, almost getting in a fistfight with pacer's crazy stalker, falling in the biggest pile of snow i've ever seen, falling down on the ice a shit ton, playing 4 different card games, hitting on some 17 year old kid at the show and again at the house, acting half retarded all night and finally pretty much passing out on ellis's couch at 5 30 in the morning. It was wuite the night.  Woke up the next day, hung out with this rad new Amanda girl for a bit and then went back to the house and came home.  Today I slept a lot and then ran some errands and went and saw my Carson since I missed him so much over the last couple days.  Tomorrow I have to help him with his English homework... boring, but oh well.  And they have practice at 6, so i'll go to that.  The sog of the week is in honor of my new Bozeman friends, expecially the ones I'm moving in with...Amanda and Ellis...

SoNg Of ThE wEeK: "Existentialism on Prom Night" by Straylight Run

When the sun came up,
We were sleeping in,
Sunk inside our blankets,
Sprawled across the bed,
And we were dreaming,

There are moments when,
When I know it and
The world revolves around us,
And we're keeping it,
Keep it all going,
This delicate balance,
Vulnerable all knowing,

Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would, kill for this

Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would, you would...

Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key,
Sing me anything,
we're glad for what we've got,
Done with what we've lost
Our whole lives laid out right in front of us,

Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would,

Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would, you would....

Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key,
Sing me anything.

hey guys...again I'm sorry it's been so long since i last updated. I get in these moods where I just don't feel like doing it.  I don't really feel like telling you guys everything thats been going on lately. It's complicated as usual and kinda personal. I went to Billings and hung out with Heather for a couple days and go lost in Laurel looking for Seany and the boys from PBP and their show. Then there was the great cd realese party. November 19th me and Nick, Talan and Dan headed for Bozo. Cat/ Griz game was that day and the cats pulled off a miraculous win.  So of course, Bozeman was a happy town.  We got there and that night Pace and Evan and Nick practiced with a basement full of people watching and playing beer pong. It was a blast. that is until Talan decided to drink. He decides to purchase a halg gallon of Nickolai (aka pacer in a bottle) so he gives me some cash since im the only sober one and they send me off with Anthony, NIck's brother, to the liquor store. On the way there, he jumps out of my car at a stoplight and is like "Follow that truck!!" and jumps in the back of this red truck. So i do and we end up at  soem house where he makes me come inside for a bit so he can have a beer and then we finally got o the liquor store and go back to the house. tlana decides that everytime someone takes a shot hes gonna take one, so one hour and eleven shots later, talan is obliterated.He leaves the kitchen and coems back like ten mintues later and leans on the sink and starts gagging but wnt throw up. This is wehre the night got bad. He starts rambling about how its all Nick's fauklt and how hes never drinking again. Mind you, this is Talan's first booze drunk night. Meanwhile, Pacer is playing guitar and he busts out the 8 Mile theme song which makes us all craxck up because Talan has bleach blonde hair like Eminem and the whole "vomit on his sweater already" line was crucial at that moment. So then comes THE LINE "I just cant handle this right now you guys..." Talan probably said that a total of 80,000 times that night and we never want to hear it ev3er again.  So Pacer got sick of his shit and picked him up to carry him into the living room.  He passed out in Pacer's arms and Pacer dropped him ont he bean bag. He threw up all over it later that night.  The rest of the weekend consisted of pretty much the typical drunkenness from everyone else EXCEPT Talan. I got pretty booze happy one night and supposedly was spraying oven cleaner all over the place. Intersting.  Then on monday night we went to Freemo's pizza and some crazy guy was hitting on Amy and speaking some foreign language and yelling about the beef pizza being noexistent, at which point the lady was like "Vegetarian Pizza anyone?" it was classic.  Tuesday we went to helena for the Driven Under cd release show. that was a total blast. They all did great.  Then I guess the last couple weeks have been kind of a downslide for me. It's so personal thoguh i cant even talk about it but im okay now so dont worry.  This last weekend was CRAZY!!  The Christmas Stroll was on Friday and there was a killer show with MAnnequin Republic (Matt and Carson's band) it was good and then we went ot Jakes andhung out and then went to Mark and Matts new house.  Matt got beligerently drunk and decided to punch the bathroom mirror. so i spent the whole night cradling him and running my fingers through his hair and trying to get him to drink water until he finally passed out and i sat with him until 630 in the morning and cleaned up his hand.  then doug came over and brought weed laced with meth and amanda and dan smoked it and amanda was crying and dan was pissed and i was so sad but there was nothign i could do cause i didnt find out until after they smoked it.  argg why would someone do that??!!  So i finally passed out from exhauston on marks floor at 7 in the morning. then slept all day and came homje and showered and went out again to jakes house and i was preeeety drunk myself and i promised matt i would come sleep at his house but i never made it cause i passedout at jakes. i woke up at noon and was still drunk so i crawled into jakes bed and slept with him all day until like 6 pm when i finally came home and now i am doing nothing.  Its gonna be a long month.  MY SISTER HAD HER BABY!!  Corbin Jacob was born 26th at 6:31 am.  He was 7 lbs 13 oz. and 19 inches long.  He is beautiful and i cant wait to see him next month.  Anyways, not muich going on this week that i know of so hopefully now i can update more opften and keep you guys in the know of my hjectic and crazy life.  See you later.

sOnG oF ThE wEeK:  "A Long December" by the Counting Crows

A long december and there’s reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can’t remember the last thing that you said as you were leaven’
Now the days go by so fast
And it’s one more day up in the canyons
And it’s one more night in hollywood
If you think that I could be forgiven...i wish you would
The smell of hospitals in winter
And the feeling that it’s all a lot of oysters, but no pearls
All at once you look across a crowded room
To see the way that light attaches to a girl
And it’s one more day up in the canyons
And it’s one more night in hollywood
If you think you might come to california...i think you should
Drove up to hillside manor sometime after two a.m.
And talked a little while about the year
I guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower,
Makes you talk a little lower about the things you could not show her
And it’s been a long december and there’s reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can’t remember all the times I tried to tell my myself
To hold on to these moments as they pass
And it’s one more day up in the canyon
And it’s one more night in hollywood
It’s been so long since I’ve seen the ocean...i guess I should

The town, not the person. Okay, so the last week has been pretty interesting. Last weekend, the boys arrived late Friday night. We went to the studio and found them and decided to go and eat at good ol' 4Bs. So the 9 of us just kind of hung out for an hour or so and then decided to go to Mark Mann's house. We arrived and things were semi boring, so I took Justin and AJ to my house and they took some shots and I laughed because apparently Jim Beam and coke don't taste very good. I brought them back to Mark's house and everyone was drunk. I love being the only sober person (besides Jordan) around a bunch of drunken idiots. The OG's were all pretty trashed and dancing around and trying to kiss people. I laughed and then Mark said he wanted to go to sleep so we moved the party to my temporary house. I had asked Aaron earlier if I could invie some people over and he said sure. Everyone came over to my house and things were pretty out of control so I made some people leave and the rest of us just kinda chilled for a bit. Out of nowhere, Zack, the landlord came over and got all pissed and starting throwing people ou of the house and shit and he picked up Demus b the back of the neck an threw him into the door and Jordan and Matt got punched in the face and Carson almost did and it was crazy. Somehow in the scuffle, I too ended up being punched in the face. So I went over to Mark's for a bit and we put some ice on my face and Nina and the Juice slept in the corner and T-Hugz and Dylan slept on the couch and Matt and Amber and Eric slept in the sex room and I went to the boys' hotel. I knocked on the door and Jordan answered and saw my ice pack and he was pissed and so I slept on their floor. The next day, I picked up the girls and we all hung out for a while and went to get some Mickey D's. I showered and stuff and then we went to meet the boys at McDonald's in Marketplace because they had gone to a movie with Hanna and some other Conrad girl and yeah. We walked over to the movie theater parking lot and played hackey sack and listened to the old used and hung out for like an hour. It was fun. Then we went to my house and eveyone played beer pong and it was kinda lame, but we still had fun. Then Justin realized he had left his phone in the movie theater parking lot and so I took him to go get it. We were gone for like an hour and had a really long talk. We got back and AJ and Greg had raided Aaron's closet and he gave them a bunch of shit he didn't want anymore which was cool and he apologized for the night before and everyone got along and I was happy. Then we went back to the hotel and went to sleep at like 2 in the morning. The next day Aaron was supposed to record his vocals but he was really sick and he pretty much sucked at life that day so they postponed and decided to come back. But the music they got done was amazing! I really love their new song "The Best Thing". It rocks!  I forget if I already told you gys that we have set a date for the "wedding". Noevember 19th a bunch of us are getting together and getting all dressed up andgoing to dinner at 3D and watching movies and whatnot...that's our "ceremony" it is sure to be a grand time.  Anyways, so the boys left around like 4 and i was sad.  Then the week flew by pretty fast. I was supposed to go to Chinook but Justin is the hardest mofo to get ahold of on the planet! So I didn't go.  So hmm...Sean (Amber's bf from Billings) was here for their 5 day weekend.  He showed up on Wednesday.  Friday night a bunch of us went to the haunted house at the old jail...I literally thought i was gonna die...and then, right when we got outside, demus jumped out and we all just about pissed ourselves! What a duscher...Okay...so then we went to Hardee's and got free ice cream for kissing th guy working on the cheek...that was pretty sweet...I had a mint chocolate chip milkshake...yummy.  I tried to take Sean's bandana out of his back pocket and he yelled at me and that sucked, but then he apologized royally and gave me a big hug. I love Sean. Great guy...perfect with Amber...Hmm...So then that night there was a party at Brad and Craig's. I made an appearance simply to pick up Mollie's drunk ass and drive her so she didn't die.  Craig and i actually got along that night whcih was good.  The party moved to Aaron's and Amanda and Nick came over with the usual crew.  I left drunken Mollie and went to Cattin's with them, wheer we stayed until 6 in the morning! It was during this time that I was invited on another adventure.  Our friend Matt is from Troy Montana.  He has a friend Brad who is being deployed to Iraq shortly.  He wanted to see him before he left, so Nick volunteered to take him up there.  He told us his friend Brad would pay for everything and whatnot, we just had to get up there first.  So Nick and I payed for all the gas.  The first night we stopped in Missoula and I went to bed early while the others all got pigsnacked and took pictures of eachother running around in the streets and passing out in the piles of leaves. Classic eh? The next day we had ANOTHER 3 hour drive to get up to Troy... At this point I will tell you about Matt. Matt has an obsession with CKY the band.  He loves them.  We finally learned last weekend where that obsession stems from and BY GOD did we learn.  So we get to Troy and go to this guy John's house. (Mind you it is 45 degrees colder up there in BFN, so we were freezing balls) We get there and there is a sign on the door that says CKY2K (name of a CKY dvd) on the front door.  We walk in and John is wearing a CKY shirt and sitting on the couch next to his wife, also wearing a CKY shirt, as well as a CKY necklace and belt buckle, a heartogram necklace and sporting a HIM tattoo (the Egyptian flame from the cover of Deep Shadows Brilliant Highlights).  Wowzers.  Wait, wait, it gets worse.  They were watching a horror movie with the sound OFF and listening to CKY as sort of a soundtrack.  So the boys got a little pigsnacked and I hung out pretty much doing and saying nothing.  Matt decided to take a walk thirty frickwen miles to some pond and we were like f that, so me and nick and dan stayed behind and sat in silence in this trailer for like an hour and a half, watching John play Madden football and NOT offer for any of us to play or do ANYTHING for that matter.  Then, when Matt got back, John put in the CKY4 dvd and we had to watch that.  Don't get me wrong. I like CKY. I really like Bam Margera and I fricken LOVE H.I.M. But that was f-ing rediculous.  so yeah. then me and nick are still wondering where our money is cause we were suppposed to get paid as soon as we got there.  So me and Brad are outside talking and he mentions that he would "help us out if he could get to his bank" In other words, he had NO IDEA that he had been volunteered to pay for our whole f-ing trip. I told Nick and we THOUGHT the night couldn't get any worse. But we were sooo wrong.So then John kicks everyone out so they can go to bed and we are like uh...okay...matt told us he had plenty of places where we could stay...and then he was all "Uhh...okay well I guess we can sneak into Vinny's house..." Me and Nick are looking at eachother like "Is this kid serious?" So we snuck into some house and there was no heat and we slept on the floor and had sheets for blankets and froze to death and it was soooo horrible.  (Sidenote: The next morning, Nick tells of how he was unable to sleep and was staring at the jack o lantern on top of the tv.  It was carved in the shape of the grim reaper and while he was in his daze, the lid fell in and put the candle out and Nick was pretty scared after that...) So in the morning, Brad is like, if yu take me to my bank I will give you guys plenty of money to cover this whole mess.  We are like alright, let's drive down the street to the bank and it'll all be okay.  So we ask him where his bank is...Kalispell.  That's two hours away.  So we have to borrow money from his mom to get gas to get to Kalispell and then Brad buys us all lunch and fills the gas tank and pays me and Nick each 50 bucks for our troubles...Matt=duschbag who didn't pay us a dime and probably never will.  So then we drive back to Troy, another two hours, to drop Brad off and Matt decides (hallelujah!!!!!!!) that he s gonna stay there and we are going to go home without him. Let me tell you I almost cried tears of joy!  But I was very sad when we said goodbye to Brad because he is a total sweetheart and he was super nice and I wish him luck in Iraq and I pray that he comes home to us safely.  Who knows how matt will get back to Great Falls...and honestly...I don't really care.  He's a pretty good guy for the most part, but htis weekend was bullshit.  So we left Troy after the worst night ever and went back to Zootown.  We stayed at Ayme's again and hung out with her and her roommtes, who all rock. Let's just say we had a pretty good night.  I went to sleep around 4:30 and then we were supposed to leave early so I could get home for work, but that didn't happen because Nick straight passed the fuck out and didn't wake up for the alarm on his phone.  We got back to G-funk around 6:30 and I was exhausted, but it was still fun, horrible, but fun.  I took the photos to one hour photo and the turned out pretty sweet, especially this silhouette of nick leaning on a lightpost.  There were a crapton of pics from when the PBP boys were here, including one of me and AJ and he was licking my face...lol...I love him! So yeah...I got hired at Herberger's and will most likely be resigning my position at Zumiez considering that last week I had like 3 hours... This week was pretty unexciting until yesterday.  I was eating lunch at Taco Treat with Mollie when we ran into James, whom we haven't seen in like 6 months.  We talked for about an hour and he invited us to a halloween party at the hi ho bar (the local fireman's bar)  We dyed my hair really dark brown that night and it looks really good, it brings out my brown eyes.  Then we went up to the hi ho and hung out for a couple hours and then went to James's house to watch Hitch, for the millionth time.  Sweet.  My friend Kayla called me for the first time since she left for the navy and i was soooo excited! I miss her a lot.  She graduated basic and is in tech school now.  She gets to come home for Christmaas and that is going to be a very sweet reunion!  Today was a lazy day, just chillin and me and Mollie went to the laundrymat to wash our 8, yes 8, batches of laundry. And if you have an issue with me calling them batches instead of loads, that sucks for you.  So we did that and now i am here, writing this update that is long overdue. But, i think it can be forgiven considering as how I was in hell USA this weekend.  (PS my sister was pissed when she found out i was that close to spokane and didnt come to see her! And her due date has been bumped up...little Corbin is probably going to be a little bit early!)  So yeah...this weekend is gonna be pretty rad.  Tomorrow is an OG night and then Sunday the PBP boys are back for the Freak Show.  Yay!!.  I love Halloween because it means two more months till Christmas!!!  I am obsessed with Christmas...as you all know by now.  Probably not dressing up, but if I do, me and Mollie are gonna be Goldie and Wendy from Sin City, except now I have to get a blonde wig, cause I'm not blonde anymore.  Monday is actually Halloween and I'll probably go trick or treating with Mollie and then pass out some candy with my mom.  Cool.  Upcoming events...not many...I can't go to 311 cause I have to work and I can't go to Bright Eyes with my Jordy cause I have to work and I'm kinda pissed but it's okay cause I need to save some money.  Okay, now for the depressing news.  Chris has quit Driven Under.  (and he cut off his dreads).  It's a long story apparently, but if you want the whole story, read the site, that has the accurate version.  to my knowledge, they are all still on good terms, so don't believe the rumors you hear, if you hear any.  They have a new bassist named Sam, and I'm sure he will do a decent job in Chris's very-hard-to-fill shoes.  Good luck to the boys with that.  They have a cd release show coming up on November 18th at the Carroll College Cube in helena and they are playing with Nick and Evin and Pacer (aka the 8th day), so that should be a great show.  BE THERE OR BE SQUARE!!!!! Okay, I will hopefully update again soon...have a great weekend and a super Halloween. Stay safe and if i cathc any of you fuckers beating up little kids, or stealing candy, or smashing people's pumpkins, i will personally kick your asses!!  Mucho Love....me     (ps...myspace wars are lame...and so is that "my humps" song)

SoNgS oF tHe WeEk:  "Heartache Every Moment" by HIM

From lashes to ashes
And from lust to dust
In your sweetest torment
I'm lost
And no heaven can help us
Ready, willing and able
To lose it all
For a kiss so fatal
And so warm

Oh it's heartache every moment
From the start 'til the end
It's heartache every moment
With you
Deeper into our heavenly suffering
Our fragile souls are falling
It's heartache every moment
Baby with you

And we sense the danger
But don't wanna give up
'Cause there's no smile of an angel
Without the wrath of god

Oh it's heartache every moment
From the start 'til the end
It's heartache every moment
With you
Deeper into our heavenly suffering
Our fragile souls are falling
It's heartache every moment
Baby with you
My darling with you

From lashes to ashes
And from lust to dust
In your sweetest torment
I am lost
And we sense the danger
But don't wanna give up

Oh it's heartache every moment
From the start 'til the end
It's heartache every moment
With you
Deeper into our heavenly suffering
Our fragile souls are falling
It's heartache every moment with you
That's right


AND!!!!!  "Betrayal!" by The Black Maria

I love how they used to say,
It's all in your head.
You're a paranoid picture,
You're a photograph...

Exposed by the light,
When you step outside,
Burnt by the sun,
That's in your eyes...

But when I saw it in my face,
In this mirror that needs to break,
Something bothered me and left me to feel...

Betrayal, Betrayal,
It rips right through me,
How you lie right to me,
Betrayal, Betrayal,
Will this world make better sense?
Once you mean nothing to me...

It's on the cutting room floor,
Footage of this mess,
Filmed then packaged and ready to sell...

Betrayal, Betrayal,
It rips right through me,
How you lie right to me,
Betrayal, Betrayal,
Will this world make better sense?
Once you mean nothing to me...

You used to live in a memory,
Now those pictures are burning...now
You're a memory,
A fingerprint on the film,
You're a shadow in the sun,
Now it's your time to burn...

Betrayal, Betrayal,
It rips right through me,
How you lie right to me,
Betrayal, Betrayal,
Will this world make better sense?
Once you mean nothing to me...

One day, you will come crawling back,
To the same place that I've been...

Alright...it's been like a week and a half, and I have some updates for you! First off, Conrad was VERY interesting last weekend...ask me...go ahead...ask me... But I came home on Sunday and kind of bummed around for a bit and then all week I went out and tried to find a new job...I still work at Zumiez and all, but I need a bit more income to get ready for my move to Bozeman in 3 months...so yeah...hung out at Brad and Craig's a couple times, played some lame ass x-box game called OBSCURE...no joke, it's the gayest thing I've ever seen...give me Halo any day! Thursday Wes and Keith (two of the roommates) came home and the countdown to Bozeman began! Thursday also, Mollie decided she was pissed at me...REALLY long story...so she didn't talk to me like all night and then everyone just kind of chilled and that was that. Friday we had a little shindig and had some people over. CMR had their homecoming and they won that...(*CONGRATS OG'S*) The girls came over....there were some games of beer pong and some shots of SoCo (none of which included me!!) and everyone kinda passed out. I watched Detroit Rock City (for the 936,452,187 time) and went to sleep after another day of Mollie not speaking to me. I knew she'[d get over whatever power trip she was on, so I just left her alone...I basically didn't care about anything this week.  Went to Fort Benton and paid my 370 dollar fine...DAMN HWY PATROL!!  Saturday I had to work and it was like 4 and this chick came in and was talking to Talan, who was in visiting me (Yes, THE talan...the one who got arrested after telling the Great Falls PD it was bullshit when they kicked Tony Hawk out of the skatepark a couple weeks ago...but it's gonna be okay, cause he's probably gonna be on the new video about the Hawk Tour Invasion thingy...) anyways...so this chick comes in and she said she wanted to go to Bozeman with us and I was like whatever...i didn't think she was serious...but when she left she got my number and I was like alright....so I went home and went to the show and forgot all about it.  Then I'm standing in the parking lot with a bunch of people and Ashley told me I had a phone call...my roommate Aaron was like uh....you need to come home...I was like why and he was like...some girl is here and says you are supposed to be taking her to Bozeman tonight...YIKES!!  That crazy girl showed up at my house! I was like WTF dude..put her on the phone! SHe got on the phone and I was like, we don't have room in our car...sorry dude! Scary!  Then I found out she's the same crazy girl who got my Nick and everybody busted at Creech's house on Thursday cauase she's f-ing eleventeen and loud and fuckin stupid when she drinks!  AND (yea there's more....re-god-damn-diculous huh?!) she's obsessed with Dan (the Kipster) and he went with us and that could have been bad...but anyways, I only saw a bit of the show, but it was cool...Days of Dreams and everything...then we formed the convoy and left for Bozeman...AROUND 1 AM! God damn we're stupid sometimes! So my car, with me Talan and Dan left at 1 and then Andy's car with Nick, Matt, Mike, and Aaron (and Andy duh...) left around 2.  We rolled into Bozeman at 4 and went to Evin's house and pretty much all but passed out. We were gonna go next door to see the Silica boys cause the lights were all still on, but meh...we slept. An hour later...in strolls the rest of our party and joined us in slumber.  The next day we hung out all day and ate some taco bell as usual.  I went and picked up Hillary and went to see Garth and that was all cool...we went to the show around 5:30 and waited in line.  We eneded up FRONT ROW for The Black Maria, Taproot, and Chevelle! It was intense.  The Black Maria rocked out (the new drummer is good stuff) and Taproot was fricken hardcore (and the lead singer crowd surfed and I fell in love with the guitar player!!).  But NOTHING that night compared to Chevelle.  I moshed and crowdsurfed and it was all amazing.  I standing there and someone grabs me head...I turn around to see Aaron and Keith and I was like OMG!! I didn't think my roommates were going to be able to make it down, but they all showed up!  (I ran into Wes later in the mosh pit...) Ran into Matt Janzer and that was pretty cool...Hillary SEVERELY injured her shoulder and it sucked, but she stayed in so i was proud of her, since this was her first big concert... Someone landed on my head and flattened me and I broke a rib, but no other major injuries...I had a total blast (even when some crazy kid put his cigarette out on his forehead while staring at me...FREAKY) and when it was all over I was exhausted and dripping with sweat and wobbly and in pain...but so motherf-ing happy!!  Went to the quads and showered and went back to the house where we heard stories of Nick and Mike and Andy getting to meet Chevelle and being all excited...that was pretty sweet, it was Mike and Andy's first big show as well...At the house, we played some strip poker and that quickly escalated when Hillary got drunk off her ass and half naked, and I sort of told everyone that she works at Teasers...I managed to stay sober, and clothed...two of my favorite things in the whole world!  Took a nap around 4 am and got woken up by Pacer at 4:30 telling me to grope Nick and find his cigarettes...NO LUCK...I groped him for nothing!  Me and Pace talked until prolly 6:30 and the sun came up and he fell asleep on the kitchen table and I went back to sleep on the floor next to Nickolas...Woke up around 3 and headed home...I have no idea what the F happened to Hillary, she wasn't there in the morning so lol...We went to buy Haggard lat night when we got into town because Aaron had never seen it...That's when Mollie apologized and told me everything that was going on with her and I was just like "meh...I knew you'd get over it"  YOU SEE???  If you don't let things bother you, they will usually work themselves out!!  Rented Amityville Horror and The Ring Two and an XBOX game and went home.  Stayed up till about two and hit the sleeping thing.  That was my week in a nutshell....you didn't miss much unitl CHEVELLE!!  This weekend is pretty big. The PBP boys will be in town and I am sooooo excited to see my fiance and Justin! (everyone else too, but mostly them) They are recording with Matt down at good ol' 4th ave so that will be cool. Saturday is a kickass show in Havre, Tears Fall Red, Scarlett Sonata, Driven Under, and Cagematch to the Death...I want to go, but I don't think I can leave the boys and the OG's for that long....specially since we never get to hang out anymore! Ummm yeah....okay...i will update again as soon as something exciting happens and one more thing....ask me about the new dude....HONESTLY>......hottest guy I have ever f-ing seen....hands down....(Yet another reason why I am in a hurry to move to Bozeman!!!!!!!!)   Okay...peace and love!

sOnG oF tHe WeEk: "The Clincher" by Chevelle

Touch
I'll stand for nothing less
Or never stand again
These are the limits when one's buried
This body's left the soul
Could we have known
Never would I, helped to nail down
Careful of drifting off
Now losing taste and touch
Turning a pale blue leaning in to say
This body's left the soul
The brain needs oxygen
Can't sneak around this bait
His catacomb has got me by the chin
This body's left the soul

[Chorus]
Could we have known
Never would I, helped to nail down
With nothing to gain
Here's the clincher, this should be you
Now saturate [x4] and touch
Now saturate [x3], the earth
Now saturate [x3], the earth

[Last chorus]
This happened to be never changing
Holding inside, the phobia viewed
Made cold and crippled, ending it all

Alright...I know it's been fricken forever since I updated but I'm finally getting on it so stop with the bitching, I've been busy as hell. Alright, I guess I will just start with Warped Tour....FLIPPIN SWEET!!!!!! So me Kayla and Andrew headed down to Bozeman for Vans Warped Tour 2005 on Thursday night.We hung out with everybody that night and I crashed at Nick and Zack's house because there was no goddamn room left at Pace and Evin's. But the funny thing was, there wasn't much room at the Silica House either because of our houseguests. So I am sittting next door and Nick V. comes in and says some band is staying at our house. Apparently, the band Cigarette, whose van was on Pimp My Ride, couldn't geet a hotel and so Max, who works at a hotel, told them to go to thee Silica House. Nick and Zach glaadly obliged. They showed up and were some of the coolest people I have ever met. From Heather, the singer with an absolutely amazing voice and a heart of gold, to Louie, their cameraman, who caught Beau and Pacer's bitchslapping fight on camera. Haha. So everyone was there, the three of us, and Pace, Evin, Nick, Nick #2, Zach, Beau, Max, Chris, Morgan, Kristin, blah blah blah.....Let me take a minute to botch the rumors going around about my opinion of Morgan. I LOVE MORGAN! I think she is one of the sweetest, most genuine people I have ever met. I think it's rediculous that people are saying I don't like her. Anyways, moving on...so yeah. The next morning we all intended to go to the Garden around 8 AM, but it didn't exactly work out that way. Nick, Chris, Morgan, and Chris actually made it kind of early I've heard, but as for the rest of us, not so much. We ended up down there around 11 AM. The line actually wasn't so bad. So we are waiting and this guy comes up to Ash and tells her that if she marries him, he will marry her back. We were like what? but then they told us they were in the band DAZE and they signeed our shirts and he wrote something about fighting midgets on mine and it was great. Then Ashley goes to find the lady with her free ticket for volunteering or something and she comes back and tells us she got a backstage pass and that she has to work at some booth for like 3 hours or something. So we were like whatev and she took off. We were waiting in line and some guy comes up to me and tells me he's in a band from RI called Monty. So I listen to the cd and it was rad. I bought one and he kissed my face. Kind of weird but cool at the same time...more on Monty later... Me and Kayla got inside and the first thing we saw was Atreyu...two words...FUCKING AMAZING!! No joke, it was hardcore. Well, I'm not going to go through each show step by step with you but basically everything that day was perfect. We saw Hawthorne Heights and my song was incredible and me and Ash and Kayla got our asses kicked in the mosh pit. Me and Kayla were at Amber Pacific and I got the dude's guitar pick. I am now wearing it on a chain around my neck. (Sidenote: When attempting to heat a guitar pick up in order to poke a needle through it, do nott, I repeat, DO NOT place it over a direct flame. I was unintelligent in the endeavor and it caught on fire...) So The Starting Line of course was killer, and Ash went backstage and met Kenny and cried of course. But the pics are really sweet. We were front row for that and it rocked. I used the pass to go onstage with Fallout Boy, and that was a kick in the pants. They are in fact much better live and I hope to see them again someday. I met them and got somee autographs and some photos and it was chill. Then came the highlight of my life: Thrice. Oh. My. God. Me and Brendan and Levi and Brett and Mike (Garth was singing at a wedding) and my girls were front row center for that shit and let me tell you it was the greatest experience of my life. There were random people falling on my head and stepping on me but I didn't care. I didn't really even notice. All I know is I saw Thrice live and it was the best show at the tour and i will never be the same. We let Brendan use the pass to go backstage and meet them and I let Nick have it to be onstage with them. I got to meet them later anyway so I was okay with it. Ran into Dan, Chris, Justin, and Mike around that time of the day and we exchanged casual hellos.. Hmm let's see...then what? Well, Dropkick Murphy's was rad, Simple PLan was as good as Simple Plan can be I guess, My Chemical Romance neaarly got me killed, but I loved it. The Transplants rocked...am I forgetting anything? Oh Cigarette played and they were really good and Heather is such an amazing vocalist. And the girl has such cool stage prescence. Yeah...so we were coming offstage from Fallout Boy when Beau spotted the Simple Plan drummer (Chuck?) and we got photos with him. After My Chemical Romance, I noticed the guys from Thrice and The Starting Line chillin right behind us so we exchanged friendlies. I was also backstage and got to meet the drummer, bassist, and singer, from MCR, which made my day even better. Oh, and The Bled was literally inspiring....they are such a killer band...if you don't know who they are give em a shot...you will most likely like them... Yeah...Ash bought me a MCR poster and I think that is all of the really cool stuff that happened. Of course, we all got molested, which sucked, but was to be expected. We grabbed some pizza on the way out of the Garden and then we went to get more food....dude it was a long day. We went back to the house dreading a party, but luckily, everyone was reaady for bed. Except Nick who was all "Oh my god...I just met Silverstien at Subway..." Haha....I love Nick.... A few of us showered and headed down to Old Chicago and drank some water and hung out. Then it was home and bed and i warned everyone that if I was woken up that night someone would have to die. So what happens at three AM? Kayla and Pacer and Marty Mathern and some other asshole wake me up because they want to play beer pong or someething and apparetnly that requires beaucoup amounts of noise. So I was pissed and the next day consisted of me driving Andrew and Kayla back to Great Falls in near silence....goddamn people waking me up.... So we went home after a successful weekend (successful meaning that I didn't lose my keys...YES!) Home sweet home and time for Nicky to get a job. So i moved back home with my mom after MUCH deliberation. And was hired at Zumiez as an associate manager...sweet action....incoming cash, just in time for the fair... But first, Tyler had to graduate...so Tyler graduated finally. I went to his grad and we threw him a shindig afterwards and that was that. I was proud and we have been getting along pretty wwell since then.So the fair came to town. I was wandering around with Mollie and we ran into the Juice and his friend Dylan. They huing out with us and we invited them and some other people over for a small get together. Well, by the time Mollie and I arrived, the small get together had become a raging party. Brett apparently was planning a get together that night as well and thus the house was packed. I ended up leaving around 1 to take Britney (Dylan's ex) home and discovered that a couple nights prior, she had done certain things with Craig which qualified as Craig cheating on his girlfriend holly with her. So I immediately called Craig to ask him about it and this is where I begin to suck at life. Craig flipped out and him and Holly broke up. He now hates me. Why Craig? I didn't cheat on Holly, YOU did. Just because her best friend Andrew now wants to kill you does not mean you should hate me...I didn't tell them....Holly did. But whatev...so the fair ended well, with me making a couple new friends in Brittany and Dylan. Then Silica came to town and played a show at the Breaks. It was a good time and we got to see Beau and Nick adn Zach which made everything better in my life...YAY!!! I work all teh damn time now, but am okay with that. So then comes the part where you are up to speed on the current life situations....Let's start with heather...she came back from Billings and decided she didn't want to be friends anymore, I accepted that...then I called her to say goodbyee becausee she was leaving for college. She apologized and told me she missed me and we made up after three months of not being friends....wow..but things are good now and she is in Billings going to school. A few weeks ago, Brendan called me and told me that ABA wanted to play a show in Great Falls before Garth left for college. So, since everyone knows how much I love Brendan and Levi and all those boys, I made a few phone calls. We had the St. Peter and Paul gym all set up for the show on the nineteenth. SO I went about my life. The guys made fliers and hung them up and everything was peachy. They were going to play with Grand Tour and Our Forgotten Fate. I worked all week and then I was ahnging out with Nina and Ashley and me and Nina decided to drrive to Havre...we went up there to the fair and hung out with Justin and Greg and everyone (except Jordan). Sleptt in the car and had to get up and drive Nina back to town at 7 in the morning. That sucked. But oh well, I'm alive. So I went back to work that week and then it happened. We lost the venue. Apparently the insurance company wasn't notified in time and so we lost it...TWO DAYS before teh show. So, me being me and not wanting to let everyone down, I made a few phone calls. I talked to Shannen, Brendan's mom, and with the help of her fronting us some cash, booked the Northwest Center for Friday night. I had to drive to Conrad that night however to get the money and come back and pay for it so I was crazy tired, but the guys gave me a copy of the unreleased new cd two days early...woohoo.. then I had to work the next day at like 9. But I also managed to make fliers in between all this and Ryan and I put them up all over town. On Friday, me and Mollie dyed my hair...well part of it... we put purple andd black streaks in it...it was super...I had to be at the venue by 5:30, so i meet Levi and Brendan there and we set up for the show. The boys from Picture Bleeds Paint also ended up playing, which totally made my night. Amber and Nina were both out of town, which sucked, but Ashley made it to my show... the turnout was awesome....very very awesome. Thanks to Richard for being there and being absolutely wonderful and helping out...I LOVE YOU RICHARD!! Yeah...anyways...so ABA rocked and I was front and center as usual, but this time I didn't have to fight for it because Levi wouldn't have it any other way. And I got to know Garth better and he is sooo cool. Shane was there and that was akward, but who cares...PBP was goofy and fun as usual, even with Jordan breaaking like 37 strings...such is life. So the show ended and I went to Mark Mann's house with everyone and finally got to meet the new drummer for PBP, AJ, who is a sweetheart. The best part is that I wasn't supposed to be there because Mark is Craig's roommate and I am supposed to be banned form the house...haha oops... So that was cool. Then I worked a lot more and stuff...and yeah....Okay, flash forward to this past weekend...so PBP was playing in Billings on Friday and me and NIna really wanted to go. Ashley had to go camping so Amber stayed with her and me and Nina left town. Nina actually had to roll changee to trade in for cash to get us there, but we made it. We stopped in Bozeman so that I could say goodbye to Garth at college and he decided to come with us. Sweet. So we all went to Billings and saw the show. It was great. We had intentions of sleeping in my car, but Jordan didn't like that idea. We went to their hotel with theem and Jordan's super cool mom. Jordan really was awesome this weekend and we felt bad for him because everyone prejudges him to be an asshole, when he really is great. So we went to the hotel and then everyone was hungry. I let Justin drive my car and me and him tried to navigate our way through Billings to a Wendy's...did that happen? Hell no. We drove all over that town probably six times and never once did we find a goddamn Wendy's. It was such bullshit. The best part though was that we had no idea where we were and no one cared...but every five minutes Justin was like "DUDE! I know where we are!!" It was awesome. We ended up going to Burger King and pretty much taking what we could get. We went back to the room and waited hoping that AJ and Aaron would come back soon. But they didn't. AJ came back eventually, after he missed all the "fun", but Aaron slept in his car with some chick...eeh...whatev. So there were 7 of us in the room...me and justin, "sven" (Max) and Garth, Nina and Greg, and AJ...Jordan hung out with us, but then he went and slept in his moms room. He dedcideed he had to rent a video game thing off the tv, so we all sat and watched him play Super Nintendo for like 2 hours and then we went to sleep. Justin woke me up in the middle of the night. He was talking in his sleep and rambling on about geese. I wanted to push him off the bed. But I didn't. We had to gett up at 7:30 because Garth had to be back in Bozeman. He drove while me and Nina slept a lot.l We dropped him off and I saw his dorm and met his roommate and that was cool... Then me and Nina decided we didnt wwant to go home yet.,..in fact, we wanted to go to Butte. So we called Justin and told him to call us when they left Billings because we were coming to Butte. So we called Hillary and hung out with her and met this rad guy on campus named Stuart who does magic tricks and is going to go see Bright Eyes in Missoula with us. We were all haggard and grungy form not showering, but it worked for us. We left Bozeman and droe to Butte, but pulled over for a nap because i was exhausted. We showed up at the campus and the show was lame and a half, but I filmed the guys and we had fun none the less. Jordan gave us free shirts. We all just kind of goofed off for a few hours. (AND MY HAIR LOOKED FREAKING COOL!!) I proposed to AJ and we are now engaged and I am very happy. Haha. But yeah, we left around 8 ish I think and came home. I dropped Nina off and went to my bed...I was off on Sunday thank god and I just kind of bummed around. Everyone started school on Monday, which is way lame cause then i had nothing to do. What a suckfest. Today is Tuesday and now you are up to date with everything going on in my existence... Upcoming events: Going to the Used, Head Automatica, Underoath, No Warning, and Alexisonfire with Justin and some people in Calgary. Going to Chevelle in October with Garth. Going on tour with Picture Bleeds Paint in October as well...that should be a total blast. And most recently I have discovered that the band with the cool guy that kissed me randomly at Warped Tour, MONTY, will be playing in Helena next month, with who else? Driven Under! That should be a good show...anyway...I will update more frequently now. I think I just kept putting it off until there was finally so much to type that I gave up. But I got it out of the way since I had nothing better to do... And yeah....if you want to add me on your myspace, my profile is myspace.com/jadednicky Ummm cool....so I guess I will talk to everyone soon, oh and by the way...whoever the Kelsey girl is that left the "BAB" message on Jordan's cell phone...I'd watch who you talk to like that.....it pissess people off...people like me.....yeah....k bye.

(to make up for the last 7 weeks missing there will be two songs a weeks until the end of september...)

SoNgS oF tHe WeEk:

"Make Tonight" by Emanuel

She puts her lips to a bottle of cola. I watch the kiss and it turns me on. It makes me feel as though I am helpless there is nothing else. She grabs my wrist and leads me through streetlights. And locks her door behind my back. Relax relax and let these taxes of your reflex act. Sway so sway. You know you taste so good. This is the night you are the fire. Sway so sway. And we melt into the floor as one. I grab her hips and pull her closer. I close my eyes and it turns her on. We press our skin and though it resists, oh I slip inside. I feel her breath it slides down my neck yeah yeah we sweat. To the rhythm that we make. Make love. Hate yourself. But baby I'm all yours. Make tonight stay. We turn around again. Stay tonight right here. We give it all we all just fade away.

"Guttershark" by The Bled (IN HONOR OF THEIR NEW CD---You better buy it ASAP)

I crawled for miles, slit open by a trail of thorns. I prowled, I prowled for vapid avenue. slurring every word I wished I said. Stranded, a nocturnal hell hole. I have a dread of becoming a martyr. pry it out. pry it out. pavement. spits back when the clock strikes. I crawled for miles and miles. take the palms. save the fright from... I sprawled protypical creature. mouthwide on a cobblestone canvas. time lapse. rejected donors. flee from the scene. blind numb. on a whiskey slicked highway. I'm reeling towards a the temptation at hand. fog lights. disjointed lightning. nausceous nausceous, I'm drooling right on cue. I'm sleeping in a pew. It's all a misconstrued, god damn this night. Fabricate. deny. until the beat makes you sick. guttershark. prescribe. the man is void of reason. I crawled for miles and miles. till the palm's called it quit's. yeah. I crawled for miles and miles. take the palm's save the fright from...fear grips me. drained, pissed, drowned. you might cut a man just to watch him bleed. you might cure yourself of this plague. you might spill your gut's to this blood thirsty crowd. they might think I'm you. I'm gonne end up you. you can't shake it the fear the voice the tremble the bittersweet melody is deafening so hide your broken halo from me. I crawled for miles.