Alright...I know it's been fricken forever since I updated but I'm finally getting on it so stop with the bitching, I've been busy as hell. Alright, I guess I will just start with Warped Tour....FLIPPIN SWEET!!!!!! So me Kayla and Andrew headed down to Bozeman for Vans Warped Tour 2005 on Thursday night.We hung out with everybody that night and I crashed at Nick and Zack's house because there was no goddamn room left at Pace and Evin's. But the funny thing was, there wasn't much room at the Silica House either because of our houseguests. So I am sittting next door and Nick V. comes in and says some band is staying at our house. Apparently, the band Cigarette, whose van was on Pimp My Ride, couldn't geet a hotel and so Max, who works at a hotel, told them to go to thee Silica House. Nick and Zach glaadly obliged. They showed up and were some of the coolest people I have ever met. From Heather, the singer with an absolutely amazing voice and a heart of gold, to Louie, their cameraman, who caught Beau and Pacer's bitchslapping fight on camera. Haha. So everyone was there, the three of us, and Pace, Evin, Nick, Nick #2, Zach, Beau, Max, Chris, Morgan, Kristin, blah blah blah.....Let me take a minute to botch the rumors going around about my opinion of Morgan. I LOVE MORGAN! I think she is one of the sweetest, most genuine people I have ever met. I think it's rediculous that people are saying I don't like her. Anyways, moving on...so yeah. The next morning we all intended to go to the Garden around 8 AM, but it didn't exactly work out that way. Nick, Chris, Morgan, and Chris actually made it kind of early I've heard, but as for the rest of us, not so much. We ended up down there around 11 AM. The line actually wasn't so bad. So we are waiting and this guy comes up to Ash and tells her that if she marries him, he will marry her back. We were like what? but then they told us they were in the band DAZE and they signeed our shirts and he wrote something about fighting midgets on mine and it was great. Then Ashley goes to find the lady with her free ticket for volunteering or something and she comes back and tells us she got a backstage pass and that she has to work at some booth for like 3 hours or something. So we were like whatev and she took off. We were waiting in line and some guy comes up to me and tells me he's in a band from RI called Monty. So I listen to the cd and it was rad. I bought one and he kissed my face. Kind of weird but cool at the same time...more on Monty later... Me and Kayla got inside and the first thing we saw was Atreyu...two words...FUCKING AMAZING!! No joke, it was hardcore. Well, I'm not going to go through each show step by step with you but basically everything that day was perfect. We saw Hawthorne Heights and my song was incredible and me and Ash and Kayla got our asses kicked in the mosh pit. Me and Kayla were at Amber Pacific and I got the dude's guitar pick. I am now wearing it on a chain around my neck. (Sidenote: When attempting to heat a guitar pick up in order to poke a needle through it, do nott, I repeat, DO NOT place it over a direct flame. I was unintelligent in the endeavor and it caught on fire...) So The Starting Line of course was killer, and Ash went backstage and met Kenny and cried of course. But the pics are really sweet. We were front row for that and it rocked. I used the pass to go onstage with Fallout Boy, and that was a kick in the pants. They are in fact much better live and I hope to see them again someday. I met them and got somee autographs and some photos and it was chill. Then came the highlight of my life: Thrice. Oh. My. God. Me and Brendan and Levi and Brett and Mike (Garth was singing at a wedding) and my girls were front row center for that shit and let me tell you it was the greatest experience of my life. There were random people falling on my head and stepping on me but I didn't care. I didn't really even notice. All I know is I saw Thrice live and it was the best show at the tour and i will never be the same. We let Brendan use the pass to go backstage and meet them and I let Nick have it to be onstage with them. I got to meet them later anyway so I was okay with it. Ran into Dan, Chris, Justin, and Mike around that time of the day and we exchanged casual hellos.. Hmm let's see...then what? Well, Dropkick Murphy's was rad, Simple PLan was as good as Simple Plan can be I guess, My Chemical Romance neaarly got me killed, but I loved it. The Transplants rocked...am I forgetting anything? Oh Cigarette played and they were really good and Heather is such an amazing vocalist. And the girl has such cool stage prescence. Yeah...so we were coming offstage from Fallout Boy when Beau spotted the Simple Plan drummer (Chuck?) and we got photos with him. After My Chemical Romance, I noticed the guys from Thrice and The Starting Line chillin right behind us so we exchanged friendlies. I was also backstage and got to meet the drummer, bassist, and singer, from MCR, which made my day even better. Oh, and The Bled was literally inspiring....they are such a killer band...if you don't know who they are give em a shot...you will most likely like them... Yeah...Ash bought me a MCR poster and I think that is all of the really cool stuff that happened. Of course, we all got molested, which sucked, but was to be expected. We grabbed some pizza on the way out of the Garden and then we went to get more food....dude it was a long day. We went back to the house dreading a party, but luckily, everyone was reaady for bed. Except Nick who was all "Oh my god...I just met Silverstien at Subway..." Haha....I love Nick.... A few of us showered and headed down to Old Chicago and drank some water and hung out. Then it was home and bed and i warned everyone that if I was woken up that night someone would have to die. So what happens at three AM? Kayla and Pacer and Marty Mathern and some other asshole wake me up because they want to play beer pong or someething and apparetnly that requires beaucoup amounts of noise. So I was pissed and the next day consisted of me driving Andrew and Kayla back to Great Falls in near silence....goddamn people waking me up.... So we went home after a successful weekend (successful meaning that I didn't lose my keys...YES!) Home sweet home and time for Nicky to get a job. So i moved back home with my mom after MUCH deliberation. And was hired at Zumiez as an associate manager...sweet action....incoming cash, just in time for the fair... But first, Tyler had to graduate...so Tyler graduated finally. I went to his grad and we threw him a shindig afterwards and that was that. I was proud and we have been getting along pretty wwell since then.So the fair came to town. I was wandering around with Mollie and we ran into the Juice and his friend Dylan. They huing out with us and we invited them and some other people over for a small get together. Well, by the time Mollie and I arrived, the small get together had become a raging party. Brett apparently was planning a get together that night as well and thus the house was packed. I ended up leaving around 1 to take Britney (Dylan's ex) home and discovered that a couple nights prior, she had done certain things with Craig which qualified as Craig cheating on his girlfriend holly with her. So I immediately called Craig to ask him about it and this is where I begin to suck at life. Craig flipped out and him and Holly broke up. He now hates me. Why Craig? I didn't cheat on Holly, YOU did. Just because her best friend Andrew now wants to kill you does not mean you should hate me...I didn't tell them....Holly did. But whatev...so the fair ended well, with me making a couple new friends in Brittany and Dylan. Then Silica came to town and played a show at the Breaks. It was a good time and we got to see Beau and Nick adn Zach which made everything better in my life...YAY!!! I work all teh damn time now, but am okay with that. So then comes the part where you are up to speed on the current life situations....Let's start with heather...she came back from Billings and decided she didn't want to be friends anymore, I accepted that...then I called her to say goodbyee becausee she was leaving for college. She apologized and told me she missed me and we made up after three months of not being friends....wow..but things are good now and she is in Billings going to school. A few weeks ago, Brendan called me and told me that ABA wanted to play a show in Great Falls before Garth left for college. So, since everyone knows how much I love Brendan and Levi and all those boys, I made a few phone calls. We had the St. Peter and Paul gym all set up for the show on the nineteenth. SO I went about my life. The guys made fliers and hung them up and everything was peachy. They were going to play with Grand Tour and Our Forgotten Fate. I worked all week and then I was ahnging out with Nina and Ashley and me and Nina decided to drrive to Havre...we went up there to the fair and hung out with Justin and Greg and everyone (except Jordan). Sleptt in the car and had to get up and drive Nina back to town at 7 in the morning. That sucked. But oh well, I'm alive. So I went back to work that week and then it happened. We lost the venue. Apparently the insurance company wasn't notified in time and so we lost it...TWO DAYS before teh show. So, me being me and not wanting to let everyone down, I made a few phone calls. I talked to Shannen, Brendan's mom, and with the help of her fronting us some cash, booked the Northwest Center for Friday night. I had to drive to Conrad that night however to get the money and come back and pay for it so I was crazy tired, but the guys gave me a copy of the unreleased new cd two days early...woohoo.. then I had to work the next day at like 9. But I also managed to make fliers in between all this and Ryan and I put them up all over town. On Friday, me and Mollie dyed my hair...well part of it... we put purple andd black streaks in it...it was super...I had to be at the venue by 5:30, so i meet Levi and Brendan there and we set up for the show. The boys from Picture Bleeds Paint also ended up playing, which totally made my night. Amber and Nina were both out of town, which sucked, but Ashley made it to my show... the turnout was awesome....very very awesome. Thanks to Richard for being there and being absolutely wonderful and helping out...I LOVE YOU RICHARD!! Yeah...anyways...so ABA rocked and I was front and center as usual, but this time I didn't have to fight for it because Levi wouldn't have it any other way. And I got to know Garth better and he is sooo cool. Shane was there and that was akward, but who cares...PBP was goofy and fun as usual, even with Jordan breaaking like 37 strings...such is life. So the show ended and I went to Mark Mann's house with everyone and finally got to meet the new drummer for PBP, AJ, who is a sweetheart. The best part is that I wasn't supposed to be there because Mark is Craig's roommate and I am supposed to be banned form the house...haha oops... So that was cool. Then I worked a lot more and stuff...and yeah....Okay, flash forward to this past weekend...so PBP was playing in Billings on Friday and me and NIna really wanted to go. Ashley had to go camping so Amber stayed with her and me and Nina left town. Nina actually had to roll changee to trade in for cash to get us there, but we made it. We stopped in Bozeman so that I could say goodbye to Garth at college and he decided to come with us. Sweet. So we all went to Billings and saw the show. It was great. We had intentions of sleeping in my car, but Jordan didn't like that idea. We went to their hotel with theem and Jordan's super cool mom. Jordan really was awesome this weekend and we felt bad for him because everyone prejudges him to be an asshole, when he really is great. So we went to the hotel and then everyone was hungry. I let Justin drive my car and me and him tried to navigate our way through Billings to a Wendy's...did that happen? Hell no. We drove all over that town probably six times and never once did we find a goddamn Wendy's. It was such bullshit. The best part though was that we had no idea where we were and no one cared...but every five minutes Justin was like "DUDE! I know where we are!!" It was awesome. We ended up going to Burger King and pretty much taking what we could get. We went back to the room and waited hoping that AJ and Aaron would come back soon. But they didn't. AJ came back eventually, after he missed all the "fun", but Aaron slept in his car with some chick...eeh...whatev. So there were 7 of us in the room...me and justin, "sven" (Max) and Garth, Nina and Greg, and AJ...Jordan hung out with us, but then he went and slept in his moms room. He dedcideed he had to rent a video game thing off the tv, so we all sat and watched him play Super Nintendo for like 2 hours and then we went to sleep. Justin woke me up in the middle of the night. He was talking in his sleep and rambling on about geese. I wanted to push him off the bed. But I didn't. We had to gett up at 7:30 because Garth had to be back in Bozeman. He drove while me and Nina slept a lot.l We dropped him off and I saw his dorm and met his roommate and that was cool... Then me and Nina decided we didnt wwant to go home yet.,..in fact, we wanted to go to Butte. So we called Justin and told him to call us when they left Billings because we were coming to Butte. So we called Hillary and hung out with her and met this rad guy on campus named Stuart who does magic tricks and is going to go see Bright Eyes in Missoula with us. We were all haggard and grungy form not showering, but it worked for us. We left Bozeman and droe to Butte, but pulled over for a nap because i was exhausted. We showed up at the campus and the show was lame and a half, but I filmed the guys and we had fun none the less. Jordan gave us free shirts. We all just kind of goofed off for a few hours. (AND MY HAIR LOOKED FREAKING COOL!!) I proposed to AJ and we are now engaged and I am very happy. Haha. But yeah, we left around 8 ish I think and came home. I dropped Nina off and went to my bed...I was off on Sunday thank god and I just kind of bummed around. Everyone started school on Monday, which is way lame cause then i had nothing to do. What a suckfest. Today is Tuesday and now you are up to date with everything going on in my existence... Upcoming events: Going to the Used, Head Automatica, Underoath, No Warning, and Alexisonfire with Justin and some people in Calgary. Going to Chevelle in October with Garth. Going on tour with Picture Bleeds Paint in October as well...that should be a total blast. And most recently I have discovered that the band with the cool guy that kissed me randomly at Warped Tour, MONTY, will be playing in Helena next month, with who else? Driven Under! That should be a good show...anyway...I will update more frequently now. I think I just kept putting it off until there was finally so much to type that I gave up. But I got it out of the way since I had nothing better to do... And yeah....if you want to add me on your myspace, my profile is myspace.com/jadednicky Ummm cool....so I guess I will talk to everyone soon, oh and by the way...whoever the Kelsey girl is that left the "BAB" message on Jordan's cell phone...I'd watch who you talk to like that.....it pissess people off...people like me.....yeah....k bye.

(to make up for the last 7 weeks missing there will be two songs a weeks until the end of september...)

SoNgS oF tHe WeEk:

"Make Tonight" by Emanuel

She puts her lips to a bottle of cola. I watch the kiss and it turns me on. It makes me feel as though I am helpless there is nothing else. She grabs my wrist and leads me through streetlights. And locks her door behind my back. Relax relax and let these taxes of your reflex act. Sway so sway. You know you taste so good. This is the night you are the fire. Sway so sway. And we melt into the floor as one. I grab her hips and pull her closer. I close my eyes and it turns her on. We press our skin and though it resists, oh I slip inside. I feel her breath it slides down my neck yeah yeah we sweat. To the rhythm that we make. Make love. Hate yourself. But baby I'm all yours. Make tonight stay. We turn around again. Stay tonight right here. We give it all we all just fade away.

"Guttershark" by The Bled (IN HONOR OF THEIR NEW CD---You better buy it ASAP)

I crawled for miles, slit open by a trail of thorns. I prowled, I prowled for vapid avenue. slurring every word I wished I said. Stranded, a nocturnal hell hole. I have a dread of becoming a martyr. pry it out. pry it out. pavement. spits back when the clock strikes. I crawled for miles and miles. take the palms. save the fright from... I sprawled protypical creature. mouthwide on a cobblestone canvas. time lapse. rejected donors. flee from the scene. blind numb. on a whiskey slicked highway. I'm reeling towards a the temptation at hand. fog lights. disjointed lightning. nausceous nausceous, I'm drooling right on cue. I'm sleeping in a pew. It's all a misconstrued, god damn this night. Fabricate. deny. until the beat makes you sick. guttershark. prescribe. the man is void of reason. I crawled for miles and miles. till the palm's called it quit's. yeah. I crawled for miles and miles. take the palm's save the fright from...fear grips me. drained, pissed, drowned. you might cut a man just to watch him bleed. you might cure yourself of this plague. you might spill your gut's to this blood thirsty crowd. they might think I'm you. I'm gonne end up you. you can't shake it the fear the voice the tremble the bittersweet melody is deafening so hide your broken halo from me. I crawled for miles.